Sunday, July 05, 2009
So I figured if I put up a few Jo'Bro's up then I better freakin' put up some Coldplay and Snow Patrol pics! This concert was jacked! Definitly one of my top favs for sure! It was moving and packed with energy, that crazy kid Chris Martin never stops running around...ok well he does because he plays piano but his butt is rarely on the piano bench! Snow Patrol were awesome, it was so evident that they were all physced to be there! I would see them for a third time fo sho!
huh aparantly I really didn't take many pics, and non with my camera of SP..just on my phone. I find they never turn out really and then I waste time taking pictures and not enjoying the show.
Friday, July 03, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
I've discovered another tv show... Merlin, origianlly aired last year in England, and aired in North America last Sunday. It's sort of cheesy at times and may not have the best special effects but Phhh I don't care I like it! It's a twist on the old tails of Merlin, King Arthur and Camelot, they're just entering into adulthood and discovering who they are. Anyways, yep, I'm a nerd and I'm a fan!!
Did you know that JK Rowling is a part of the Church of Scotland.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Lyrics to Wait And See :
I was born in Tennessee
Late July humidity
Doctor said I was lucky to be alive
I’ve been trouble since the day that I got here
Trouble till the day that I disappear
That’ll be the day that I finally get it right
There is hope for me yet
Because God won’t forget
All the plans he’s made for me
I have to wait and see
He’s not finished with me yet
I never really was that good in school
I talked too much, broke the rules
Teacher thought I was hopeless fool alright
I don’t know how but I made it through
It’s one of those things that you’ve gotta do
But I always had a knack for telling the truth
Still wondering why I’m here
Still wrestling with my fear
But oh, He’s up to something
And the farther on I go
I’ve seen enough to know
That I’m, not here for nothing
He’s up to something
So now’s my time to be a man
Follow my heart as far as I can
No telling where I’m ending up tonight
I never slow down or so it seems
But singing my heart it’s one of my dreams
All I gotta do is hold on tight
Monday, June 22, 2009
Yay for rants, that was fun.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Today of course is Fathers day...but for my bro-in-law it was not only his first fathers day, his sons dedication but also his birthday *which I freakin' forgot!* Crazy hey. I hope he still felt special, I would be a tad selfish and think...hey it's MY BIRTHDAY....
Anyways. Yep, today I had the honour of dedicating little man Gabriel, he was so cute, and he didn't cry and my parents were there. Yeah it was special.
Yesterday I went to Coldplay HOKIE FREAKIN' DINAH! It was a ridiculous show...if you've been you know what I mean, if you haven't freakin' GO. Chris Martin is a freakin' machine, randomly yells "yeeeaaaappp" and is incredibly talented. Well done CP well done. Snowpatrol...they were so ridiculously happy! seriously, ok well maybe they were a little "gone" but they were so smiley and totally enjoying themselves.
Could you imagine if the "that was easy" button really worked. wow. what would you use it on..if you could only use it once?!
Monday, June 15, 2009
I saw all my siblings today. And all my nieces and nephews *some for a very brief moment*
Anyways my mom, Riley (13) Isaac (11) and Ella (7) walked down the street for ice-cream and sat infront of the community hall in the sun. We were playing 20 questions and it was Ellas turn...priceless. She confused us a few times by saying it had one leg, then it didnt' have a leg, and then it was an animal and it lived in the sea, but it wasnt' a whale because it only had one fin...and...it was just really cute because we were all confused and Riley stated a few times "I'm lost" and then Ella exclaimed "IT'S A MERMAID!" Briliant really.
I love my family I really do.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
On a side note I get to dedicate my nephew Gabriel on fathers day! How freakin' rad is that?! Man now there are some definate joys about being a Pastor.
To re-cap today's lesson. People Good. Numbers Bad.
Sunday, June 07, 2009
I left thinking that this trip would be a "vacation" however God had other, better, plans for me and MY trip. You see he's been teaching me how possessive I am of things...I think I've written on here about that. Well this trip was the next lesson! The night I arrived, I discovered that I would have to be involved daily in all ministry activities *oh yeah I was staying with my dear friend Janelle at hte ministry she works for called Surfing the nations. check them out!!* And God had to quickly change my attitude and turn in into a servant one. I'm so thankful he did. Such a rad time of rejuvenation and service. We had daily quiet times and there was a couple amazing times of worship and prayer for various things and people. I really felt God use and teach me in Hawaii and I feel so blessed to be a part of the Ohana of Surfing the Nations. I had an awesome time, and of course I got to enjoy being a tourist as well.
Here are some things that 100% made me smile:
- Seeing Janelle *it's been 9 months* and seeing how the Lord is moulding her and using her!
- Sleeping on the beach with the stars as my night light
- Hanging out with Baby Nemos and Sea Turtles!
- Coconut and Chocolate covered Macdamia nuts
- Meeting a great random group of people
- Surfing in Waikiki
- Longboarding in Waikiki
- Making WAY too many Lost references
- Swedish boys with stutters
- Sunsets and Swimming
- Bus adventures
- Praying with friends
- Giving out food to 400 people
- Chatting with "Woody" a dude who lives in his mini-bus turned bedroom
- Countless gorgeous views
- Being in the presence of the Lord
... I dont have all my pics, because they got erased of my disk, so I have to wait for Jan to send them. But here are a few...
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Today was beautiful. I had the honour of baptizing four of my youth girls. It was rad to hear their hearts, pray with them, and dunk them. Such a beautiful image.
We did it on a lake, the sun was shinning, the church family was gathered and the Lord was ever present.
Afterwords many loitered about and I got a crew to jump off the dock.
It was refreshing. Such a blessing.
Also, summer is upon us... HOLLA!
Friday, May 22, 2009
Hint of lime Tostitos are ridiculously good, and have more than a hint of lime to them.
I waited at a traffic light for like 15 minutes before rerouteing and turning left.
I'm becoming more and more awkward with age.
I drove to PoCo, Langley, and Surrey today. I've put over 1000 km on my three week car.
Some children are really just rude.
When people love what they are doing, it shows, even if they love it at that moment.
The guy at Starbucks supplied me with my own label, so now I no longer have to stumble my through the order just to receive my drink. Thank you!
I am attending 5 weddings this summer, starting this Saturday. I was at their rehearsal today and they are so ridiculously in love, not just the mushy kind but the yeah this is for life kind.
I've heard a relationship with God being labeled as the first love. I need to cultivate my first love to once more be my first love, I miss him.
It's such an incredible honour to be working with those that I work with, I'm blessed to be able to say that.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Hmm. I feel as though I should post something extra juicy to cover that up...
It's amazing how much plants and fake greenery can change a place. My current roomate will no longer be my roommate come June 1st and she has slowly begun moving out. Today the bamboo on the side table is gone, and the face tree thing from the bathroom counter is gone. Sad really.
I'll have to make a trip to Ikea.
I need more things for my walls too...very bare, very bare indeed.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I'm sorry for those who regularly visit this blog and know that I have made a commitment to blog twice a week, Sunday and Wednesdays. I am sorry because you will be aware that I have missed not only Wednesday but the Sunday post as well.
There are no excuses for this. It's really that I got too busy, forgot or was too lazy when I remembered.
On the flip side, I feel that the past couple of weeks I've signed onto a number of heavy commitments: A permanent job, car payments and a phone contract. If you know me well you know that I enjoy being a "roamer" a bit of a free spirit if you will. Up to this point the only real "commitment" was with a two year phone contract that I could easily buy my way out of.
I've come to the conclusion that commitment scares me, and it seems to squish me...
...mold me into an adult, who to be honest I'm not sure I want to be.
So with that being said please accept my apology for bailing out not once but twice in a row on this commitment.
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
Sunday, May 03, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
After hearing a few songs this past weekend, I began searching for Metrics new Albume "Fantasies". You know when you want something, and the more you can't have it the more you want it?! Yep that was what this was. Sunday I looked for it at the future shop and the HMV in Abbotsford. After the second attempt failed I couldnt' leave empty handed so I bought Ok Go's Oh no album. *good purchase but not what I wanted!* Then monday on the way to Walnut Grove to watch 17 Again *loved it!* I stopped in at the Best Buy in langley...no such luck, but I had no time to go to the mall or anywhere else. So once again I was disapointed.
TODAY I was still determined to get the album so I phoned HMV....it was in! So I went and I am currently listening to it... so far so worth it.
Today I listened to three of my friends express how they are frustrated, confused or incredible hurt by a guy(s). Then I heard another say that they are not focusing on a "relationship" until after the summer.
My heart actually aches for one of them. I'm sorry they are feeling broken.
Lost = awesomeness
Sun = blessing!
Job = exciting
Single = thankfulness
Music = gloryThe End.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I quickly recovered with a resonding YES!!
I got the call half an hour after I left the Elder interview.
So there you have it. It's official I can now take the "Interim" off my title.
Weird... I'm a perminent, pastor.
Praise God! I have confidence in where I am at because of how the Lord has lead me here. It's been a long journey, but it's amazing to know that you are walking in the path that the Lord has set out for you!
So the adventure continues!!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
It really was a great weekend. To be honest I was freakin' out a tad about it. I was nervous as it was my fist leading a group of youth on something out in the "world" for that amout of time, traveling, and with other groups, and and and yeah just a lot going through my mind. And the first time I was wondered how I was going to make it to Sunday and well I did make it and rad things happened! I love these crazy youth I really do... even after being sleep deprived ... God is Good.
..so tired, brain ceasing to function, eyes stinging... bed calling...
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
I think I've added learning German to my list of "To Do's"
...that was a LAME post haha.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
having or regarding the self or the individual as the center of all things: an egocentric philosophy that ignores social causes.
having little or no regard for interests, beliefs, or attitudes other than one's own; self-centered: an egocentric person; egocentric demands upon the time and patience of others.
an egocentric person.
This culture. our culture. is very aware of issues in the world. it's one that is set apart for a desire to reach beyond our own front door. to help others. social justice is something that is being more than talked about but acted out. we want causes worth dying for. we want to do more. be more. not just have more. it's a beautiful thing. yet. we are so. ego.centric. many may argue. and sure most often i would to. but i'm just rambling. but we are. atleast i am. sure i love others. spend time with others. often put aside my own "things" to care for others. but at the core of it. it comes down to me. when i'm not cared for. it's about me.
oops rant got interupted so it's over.
this post makes me seem horrible. I am not I.I . I ..I .. I am only expressing something. It started out thinking how others were egocentric. then i thought about why i'd thought that. the answer. because they werent really listening..... to ME!
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Instead it rattled around.
"I love you more than life" ...could I honestly sing that? And truly mean it. Did my life reflect it? Does my heart cry it?
It almost scared me to think that I couldn't sing that... I mean really sing that.
Then yesterday during the closing session of the youth workers conference I was at. The key note speaker echoed this quesiton. Do you love Jesus? Do you REALLY love Jesus.
I know I "love" Jesus. I always will, my heart belongs to him. But yet this question has depth.
This morning as I prayed with the other pastors, I prayed that we would discover what it means to love Jesus again, that we would kneel in his presence and learn what it meant to love him.
"There is love that came for us.
Humbled to a sinner's cross you broke my shame and sinfuless you rose again victorious. Faithfulness none can deny through the storm and through the fire there is truth that sets me free Jesus Christ who lives in me.
You are stronger you are stronger.
Sin is broken you have saved me it is written Christ is risen Jesus you are Lord of all.
No beginning and no end You're my hope and my defence you came to seek and save the lost you paid it all upon the cross.
So let your name be lifted higherBe lifted higher be lifted higher"
As we repeated the chorus I felt compeled to be on my knees, and before I knew it I was there. In his presence, on my knees...just as I prayed.
I'm learning to love once more...
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
This foot right here...is fresh! Minutes after he was born.
TA DA. I didn't hold Emmy right away because I wanted Mandy and Nate to have their time, so I took this when I came back that night, after I held him. He's ridiculsouly cute.
Blurry but beautiful!!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
I got the call 1:30am Tuesday morning. I drove Mandy and Nate to the hospital, dropped them off at the door parked and ran in. Oooh it all felt like the movies. We wheeled her into the maternity room, her breathing short stout little breathes. Anyways I'll save you all the details and end at 4:14 out comes little Emmy *I'm tryin' this nic name out...what do ya think?* It was one crazy, powerful experience! Mandy did awesome, and was so funny, polite and apologetic during labour. But still... I choose adoption haha.
I was going to put up a few pics...but I'm ridiculously tired and it doesn't want to seem to load!
But trust me, he's cute!
Sunday, March 22, 2009
...they are a true friend indeed.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
This constant pull from within is crashing against the interior of my heart. It will be silenced for now. No not silenced but hushed into a gentle colapsing wave. I will have faith. This faith will grow, expand and dwell within, consuming the empty ions that are searching for doubt. Their hope falters as my faith expounds.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
And here is why.
I got a call at like 11:20 from my brother in-law
"Are you still awake"
"Yep! I sure am!" - I begin to get excited, thinking, could this be it, is Mandy really having little buddy now?!! *She is due on the 22...but really it could be anyday now!*
"Ok good..." ....oh man it's time! You see, Mandy said there was only two people allowed in the delivery room. Nathan and ME! "Because I really have to pee" ...what the?! is this really Nathan. "And we can't get into our complex because there is a billion cop cars, there was a shooting in our cult-e-sac and it's all blocked off"
"What?! Seriously? Ok sure come on over!"
Isnt' that crazy! Freakin' four houses down from Mandy and Nates house. A shooting. So crazy.
Anyways. I was SO CLOSE to getting this writen before "thursday" and SO CLOSE *so I tought* to having another niece or nephew.
Aight, time for bed. Peace and much much love.
Sunday, March 08, 2009
It is on the way to Mt.Baker. It is ridiculously wonderful with glorious tasting muffins and well quasi good hotchocolate. haha. The hot chocolate bit didn't really fit in there.
Anyways it's this small old school house done all brilliantly. Inside it's tiny, bright and eclectique with three or four tables all cozied together. There is a display of muffins, cookies and random baked goods and a short but very chatty man who runs it. If I lived by it I would go there weekly, if not daily to hang out.
*Sigh* it is wonderful and made me feel jousous. Almost as joyous as the day at Baker made me feel.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
It could definitely be hurtful to know what people were thinking all the time, and the thing about that is, people change there mind so fast that if you only caught a glimpse of what they were thinking then you may miss the conclusion...results could be catastrophic.
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Megan Hazelton [Middle School Pastor]
It’s funny to think I’m considered old by some, mid twenties to a middle school youth is ancient, while I’m considered young to others. This is why youth ministry is the place for me; I get to be an adult but act like a youth because it’s my “job”! Acting weird, being ridiculously loud and doing crazy things are not the only reason why I love what I do. I get the opportunity to walk along side and support youth who are starting to discover who they are in Christ. Whether they’ve known Jesus all their lives or have yet to call Him saviour it is an awesome adventure to journey with them!
Some answers to frequently asked questions:
- No, I do not remember my natural hair colour.
- Yes, that is my real laugh.
- I went to Columbia Bible College where I got a BA in Youth Work.
- I Have three brothers, three sister in laws, one sister, one brother in law and eight nieces and nephews!
- My parents live in Fort Langley in the house my siblings and I grew up in.
- I enjoy reading, the theatre, visual arts, long boarding and traveling!
- I love music and have a large, eclectic collection. If you were to look on my iPod for recently played you’d see: One Republic, Adele, Snow Patrol, Kanye West, Jonas Brothers & Relient K.
...God only knows if this will be there come June!!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
I really do enjoy these books and have missed them... the characters that is. They make me laugh and yes Cry. They make me think, ponder and question. I know, I know they are fictional characters yadda yadda yadda and some may view I'm being swayed by magic and the occult...to that I say, nay! I understand if you dont want to read it, Pauls words in 1 Corinthians rings clear. However tonight I referenced Harrys plight in life to a friend who is struggling with apathy and a disconcerning situation. For them it was a reference that made it clear, a reference that actually illuminated her journey with the Lord.
I've also just realized that writing your thoughts, voicing your oppinions is a scary, precarious thing. So often your words are misconstrewed, misunderstood and mis-represented...
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
My friend wrote a blog about texting, and the fact he doesn't like it. I text him a reply because I believe myself to be witty. Meanwhile I'm also talking the them msn. I could be talking to them on facebook as well, but alas I signed off facebook chat.
Two things that did not disapoint me this week:
Re-reading Potter #6
Lost - "We're not going to Guam are we?"
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
While sitting across from a young girl, who is obviously in love with the Lord and actively pursuing him, a small truth became a big one for me. Parents have the chance to have a huge impact on their children spiritually. I had asked her what she was learning from God, and she had mentioned she was reading a book that her mother had recommended and reading through proverbs with a group of her friends. I thought this was amazing; she was devouring a book her mother suggested and reading proverbs! I asked why her and her friends were reading proverbs turns out it was suggested by her friends’ father. It was initiated by a parent. It wasn’t forced upon her or mandatory but suggested, shared with. It was her choice but initiated by a parent.
I’ve seen it many times, where youth do not take initiative in their relationship with God because although their parents may be Christian they are not actively involved in their faith formation. A relationship is not modeled to them, but merely given face time, it isn’t a way of life but a program that has been downloaded without any thought.
Youth is only two hours out of every week; it would be naive to think that this would be the greatest potential for spiritual formation. Don’t get me wrong I’m not trying to type myself out of a position however I do realize that the home should be the primary teaching ground when it comes to spiritual matters. When a parent engages in conversation with their child about what they are reading in the bible, what they are learning from God and the questions that they have, it provides the youth an opportunity to discuss and formulate their own faith. It helps them discover that they too are capable of having a real relationship with the Father. Lifeline is hopefully a place where youth feel comfortable to come and share, to learn and grow and to be supported by their leaders. Growth, challenge, and equipping takes place at lifeline, but it’s not only coming from a lifeline night, or a over a cup of steamed milk, it’s coming from the home. And that’s a beautiful thing!
Sunday, February 08, 2009
I will begin to describe why things are on the list. The frist one I had on my list was
...I know right? Sort of cliche? Phh my theory of cliches is that they are overused for a freakin' reason!! I have skydive on my list, not to seem bold or daring. Partially to seem adventurous sure. But really could you imagine free falling from a freakin' airplane! The turbulence of it all, the breath taking *literally* sensation!? Oh man, I could barely imagine. Yes I'd probably be crapping my pants, and someone might literally have to throw me out of the plane but freakin' eh I'll get out there! I'll be strapped onto someone else, i'll have multiple shoots that I wont even be in charge of opening...but I will jump from a plane! Ahhh I'm scared just thinking about it!
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Oscar Wilde. I think this man is ridiculously wonderful and witty. . .
"Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth."
"A man's face is his autobiography. A woman's face is her work of fiction."
This one made me chuckle.
"Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future. "
"Who being loved is poor."
"When the gods want to punish us they answer our prayers."
"Women are made to be loved, not understood."
Sunday, February 01, 2009
Friday, January 30, 2009
"it's $90 for an eye exam right?"
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Its not going to happen.
However, I've learned in the past couple of days of another Couple that I know are to be maried this year! I lost count of how many newlyweds/almost weds/newly engaged people I know...it's CRAZY! It'd definitely that stage in life I suppose. And I counted how many weddings I've been to/invited to and it's a RIDICULOUS amount...although I have a large family. I love weddings though I think they're great fun, especially if they have dancing!
I'm really excited for my dear friends who are getting married, such an exciting time!
I think it is so important that people dont look for completion in marriage, that people dont look to their soon to be spouse and expect them to fill every desire, every longing, every part of their soul with love and acceptance. That only comes from the Lord and I think it can be damaging to a relationship to expect all that from them.
Sometimes I look at married couples and think...really? They found someone? Isnt' that horrible!!! How ridiculous is that hey? I almost want to slap myself for thinking it, however I have... and it usually follows with, then why the crap can't I?!
oops i forgot about this.
aight i'm off to bed. hahah my friend is staying on facebook until I go to sleep.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
I tell you this because well, I have a lot to say. I feel at times I'm bursting with thoughts and random things of non importance and other times of great importance!
Some random things:
- If I could go into the LOST world, I'd like to visit with Ben Linus...such an intreguing, manipulative little man. I'd also like to hang out with Charlie...but that's not an option. Then Sawyer & Desmond. Then Hurley...
- I forgot what I was going to write....
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
I tried to go to bed at 1 after watching a couple episodes of Scrubs seasone one *which I bought myself today as a happy birthday me thing*
I couldnt' sleep, my brain wouldn't turn off. So I prayed.
I read Psalm 51 because I heard God say to read it, aparantly I hadn't spent some time cleansing my heart in a while and you know the heart can be like a semi-clogged drain sometimes...the build up...well just keeps on building up. It was refreshing, I prayed it out loud a couple times intermitted with thoughts and iniquities. Then I ambled to the kitchen and ate some trail mix...my tummy is still rumbly. Now here I sit and it's if the spirit is slowly filling the void that those confessed things left...it's calming, beautiful.
I feel that there is always a part of me that goes untouched by the spirit, like that little bit of slushy that you can never seem to get out. I know the Lord is in me and I'm 100% his...however that sliver of "human nature" clings on. That sliver that festers. I'll only truly be contented and whole when that sliver is forever removed.
Arg, dang tummy, I dont want to eat a ton of crap at 2am but I need something... cereal would be great but I dont have milk neither does my roomy.
Don't judge but I have a bagel toasting while I type.
Today was my birthday. Yep 25. Crazy, I'm in my mid-twenties. I think I like growing up, I'm still discovering who I am and the many diverse sides of myself. However I'm more founded in who I am. I'm stronger, willing to say more of what I need and want to say not just what I should say. There is a boldness that comes with age, I pray it never becomes cockyness. I'm becoming less selfish in acts and thoughts, less protective *not quite the word I was looking for* of my things but not less materialistic. I'm becoming more aware of my singleness *didn't think that could happen* and more aware of the fact that I truly desire to have a husband and one day a family. I'm softening to the idea of him being my leader and protector...although I'm not letting go of the balance and mutual submission. I'm growing up, however at the core of my being is that little girl who is frightened of what the world gives away and what invades her being. The Lord is good though, and His love truly endures forever.
The other day we had Lifegroups *our small groups* for youth. I usually will drive around to the different lifegroup locations and see how things are going, however last tuesday I stayed at one of the gr.8 girl groups. One precious girl asked "Is it ever...wrong to pray....like while you're going to the bathroom...or showering?" She asks as if she was confessing a sin that has been weighing her down for years. I burst out laughing, I quickly reassured her that her question was not invalid and I had thought of that one as well. I perseeded to say she can pray anywhere anytime and that the Lord just doesn't think like we do. It was an honest, totally lagit question. I definatly appriciated that one. I love being a youth pastor.
Honest questions, ones asked with integrity and a true desire to know the answer are a beautiful but unique set of questions.
Hmm I think the bagel did it's job.
Oh, I just read my title "trend" now I wrote that will thinking of how so many people got into blogging near the end of 06 through 07, I know many were on before and have been loyal. But a vast amount of the people who I knew that jumped on the bandwagon...definatly fell off. Some lasting more than others...but no longer on the ride for sure. Trends are interesting things.
Can I just say one thing, probably sound lame and so typical of girls and fasion. But seriously the whole scarf trend makes my heart sad. I've been wearing scarfs for years. Not just the winter scarf scarf but the cotton uber trendy oversized hankerchief ones. Now it doesn't make me sad because they're popular. But it does make me sad that I was wearing them before they got popular and will continue to wear them after they are popular but I will be seen as stuck behind the times because I'm still wearing them! I'm definatly not saying I started this trend because I sure didn't. However I will say this...out of my friends I definatly was wearing them before most if not all. Just putting that out there.
I think I should print off all my blog and put it in "Journal". I may not write as honest as if it were my journal journal...but aleast I can read it *seriously my journal is pretty illegible at times* and I often write more because writing by hand takes more effort and a lot more time. I shall do that one day....
I'm not going to lie, I spend way to much time on facebook and online for sure. I think its highly based on the fact that I, like everyone else, wants to feel connected. Even writing this is a way to stay connected. A way to ensure peole know what I'm thinking and still around. I have a lot of friends *not to sound cocky* but I really do. However it seems that its' spread out like an over sized cookie and has become vast and thin. I spend my time with people in coffee shops or food establishments catching up the month(s) because there hasn't been time to just connect. Hanging out with multiple peole is few and far between these days unless they're my youth staff. I love talking, I love connecting, and listening. It's the heartbeat of who I am. But it's a lot of work, and I'm tired. I need adventure, crazy stunts and just plan ol' hangin' out to refresh my soul. I'm tired of being the care taker. Perhaps this is why I cling to facebook and now this blog...I am tired of playing catch up so this is me grasping at staying in the now.
I feel as though I could go on... and on...
I've enjoyed typing this blog, don't feel bad if you skipped to this part because it's the last sentence. I forgive you. Go ponder something and write it down.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Anyways Tomorrow...ahem rather today is going to be a bit of a Chaotic one so I may not get a chance to write, and I dont want to botch my commitment on the second go!
I have to be up in 5 hours. I'm not going to lie, this whole being to work at 7:45 on sunday mornings is a difficult one for me. If you are unaware, I sleep...a lot. I love sleep. I'm a night owl however so that means I enjoy sleeping in. I didnt' actually get out of bed until like 12:30 today BAH HA. it's a tad ridiculous seeing as I'm almost a 25 year old woman however it is what it is.
I have a new show that is topping my charts and also a new celebraty crush...I'll tell you all about it in my next post.