Thursday, December 29, 2005
This was a postcard sent to postsecret.com **it's a blog where this guy puts up post cards that people have sent him with secrets, regrets etc. some are funny, some sad, some I skip over, but it's an interesting blog, I discovered it when I shelved the book of a collection of the postcards at work** when I read this one I laughed to myself because when I was in New York, I TOTALLY feel on the subway!
ANYWAYS, Can I just say I'm DEEPLY saddened that I won't be seeing MANY of you on NEW YEARS...*sigh* I'm truly LAME for not coming down and celebrating with you all. BUT have fun and I'm sure I'll read all about it!
I just finished reading Obsessed by Ted Dekker...it's was pretty good, I really enjoy his stuff. WOW hey I just gave you a grade2 analysis of a book.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
The day has ended with the passing of the sun and the diligent rising of the moon, the place I know all to well awaits me in my room. It’s warmth all to absent until it is created, it’s true calling not fulfilled until I’m there. I peel back the layers in great expectation knowing that soon I will be encapsulated by the very materials I fold down. First the thin coloured afghan weaved in the streets of Tijuana, then the aging comforter that at one point matched the decor but now is out of place, and then the top sheet there to act as a mediator between myself and the comforter. These are pulled away from the thick rectangle that has grown so accustomed to me it knows the position in which I sleep and moulds itself accordingly. The pillow placed gingerly on top of the mattress awaits my head in as much anticipation as I await it’s soft mouldable presence. From the moment I lay down to the moment I rise I’m thankful for this bed that is as soft as your favourite scarf, and as warm as the mug carrying your coffee.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
I have to write two take home's today, and SERIOUSLY I can't bring myself to do it...WHY!? WHY I ASK!!!!!! bah ha...they'll get done I know they will....
OOHHH today I took the Golden Nugget *my honda accord* to be repaired, yeah it's been over a month since the lady hit my front end in the chapters parking lot, but seriously I LIVE by my car. it's sad really but I'm always in it...yeah yeah I know reeking havoc on our world....ANYWAYS the point isn't that I'm horrible on the environment but that because at the time of the "incident" my car was under my dad's insurance I get a RENTAL! YAY it's sweet, it's soo nice to drive a new car that doesn't stall on you on the freeway! It's a toyota Echo...not the coolest of the cool but man its' cool!
WOAH! So one of my managers from Chapters just called me and gave me a BUTTLOAD more hours this week. It's bitter sweet really cuz i'm feeling a tad overwhelmed already this week but hey maybe this will work for my benefit when the only keep 3 of the 20 seasonals they hired!
I miss my old blog layout....BAH HA.
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Sometimes I wonder if people really know me, OR do they just see a nice, loud girl who laughs too much. . . and that's the depth of megan. cuz it's not, and I know you probably know this, but it's hard at times. YES I do get mad, yes I do get hurt and mess up. . . yeah there have been people in my life who I haven't liked. Sometimes I think that I'm too much of a people pleaser and people take advantage of that. I don't like to be the "bad guy" or let anyone down so in turn can't say "no". I haven't always had it easy or never struggle with things.
i hate it when people judge others, even though I myself do it. i hate it when people pretend and are fake, i hate it when people aren't understanding or think the world revolves around them. I hate it when people don't consider other peoples feelings and say things for shock value or to be "different" i hate labels people put on others . i hate the word poser. i hate the fact that at times I can't express myself and am lost for words. I hate that people say with there lips that they love Christ yet with there heart push him aside... in that way I hate myself. it makes me sick when I see people slamming others and having no disregard for what they are doing to that person...yet I love survivor.
yes, I am a very sensitive person. too many things and yet not all. my brothers used to tell me not to take everything to heart and take things so personally, this is easier said then done.
We are all so complex that sometimes I think it is easier to reduce people/ourselves to single characteristics so that we are able to comprehend the individuals we meet, yet we loose so much, just like I lost my links. . .
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Think about it really...you're attracted to someone, enjoy there company, all that jazz yet you are not satisfied with merely the friendship...now is that you being infatuated with the idea of being in love or are you in love?
...this can be related obviously to romance relationships but also to the relationship we have with God in terms of worship. another thought.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Monday, November 28, 2005
Ok Ok so I CAN'T stop saying that! Every since last weekend! It was great too I got a bunch of the kids that went on the retreat this weekend saying it! Speaking of the retreat it was great, such a good time to connect with some of those "over zealous" teenagers that don't usually sit still for 5 minutes. It was good to in the way I encountered God, not in the "typical" sense of the word. I mean there was not a dramatic moment where I was eleviated from all that has been burdening me over the past semester or anything like that but it was great to just spend time talking about God and rembering what it was like to be on the "faith journey" even though I never walked off it. It's all one big journey. This semester was soo hard, I held back more tears than I can ever imagine and I actually held it in and told no one, why? I couldnt' put it into words...I had a hard heart. I finally understood what that was, as soon as I finally admitted to myself and then started to to others that this was what was going on i began the journey back up the mountain *for all those "Hinds Feet" Girls* and I'm slooooooooooowwwwwwwwwllllly rising but there is nothing wrong with that. It's all part of the Journey...and I'm taking it with God.
It was nice cuz the weekend was spent on Seymour Mountain, not quite at the snowhill but about three quarters up and it was great...we woke up sunday morning to snow! AND it's suppose to snow here tonight! But alas I dont want to get my hopes up, it may not snow and if it does it WON'T last.
"You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you."
*sigh* James Blunt, saying it like it is
Sunday, November 20, 2005
-Slept in till around 11. mmm sleep
-gosh...what did I do till 2...
-worked 3-10:30...during this time I saw Caleb and Hannah *she does exist!*, saw Candace *she's an amazing person* and Dave *commuter director at school*
-talked to Jason online for a long time and discovered Mat Kearney
-around 1 in the morning I did the Daveo Smile thing
-Got up...um, around 10 I think
-woundered around my house and talked to my mom
-Managed to get a paper down for monday
-Picked up to go to maia's B-day party...
-6:15 started Ice skating...saw RON GLOVER *hahaha i had a HUGE crush on this kid when i was in grade 9, he was in grade 12*
-Made a little kid fall, he accadently cut me off and it scared me so I sort of screamed and this in turn scared him and he biffed it. yes, i laughed
-after skating we went to Sarah and Christians house for fondue and to celebrate some more...
-played taboo...yeah aparantly I suck, I got minus 3 ...*sigh
- Got told i was responsible for russian policee officers deaths because I cause awkward moments by ben
- went home and thought deeply about my life and my relationship with God
- Got up and taught sunday school for 9:30, I'm sure my girls think i'm crazy hahaha
- went to the service *for the past three weeks i've been at other churchs for my philosophy of worship class
- did some "fellowshipping"
- came home, had lunch, read some stuff for school and took an hour nap *I love sleep*
- Got up and went to my niece and nephews birthday party
- ate some food, watched a bit of Charlie and the Chocolate factory, goofed off with my siblings and had an all around good time
- caught the 8 oclock showing of HARRY POTTER & THE GOBLET OF FIRE, *loved it*, sat next to a weird man that woudnt' stop talking or tapping his toes...and when I first got there talked with a horribly fake english accent and told me that my dickies purse was brilliantly english *oh really, i thougth to myself*, watched the movie totally enthralled and missing england terribly I found myself wishing to be back there, or filming a movie * I have random thoughts*
- didnt' get home till 11. took a shower and now...now i'm here...procrastinating on sleep only because I knwo when I wake up in the morning it will be early, dark and school will be a mere 25 minute drive away...*shudder*
...oh i forgot to mention my insesant muttering of "good morning sunshine the earth says hello!" it's willy wonka and my sisters fault!
GOOD NIGHT MY FELLOW STARSHINES!
Saturday, November 19, 2005
...and you too can have the "daveo photo smile" just visit his blog!
In other news...I totally saw Caleb today *gasp!*
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
**the next lines must be read out loud with a lateral lisp**
Speaking of sharing things with you amasing people, I'm almost overwhelmed by the masses in which people are coming out of the woodwork in this blogging system. It's simply amazing to see what you are all up to, I suck at keeping in touch and this is awesome! So keep it up my friends!
** you can return to your normal voice, if you speak normally with a heavy lisp please dont hold any hard feelings just know I truly love you **
Miss PJS inspired me to share the joy of the length of my hair.Can you tell I've been watching America's Top Model...it sort of seems that I'm fishing for compliments but REALLY i'm NOT. So if you comment, comment on how witty and intelligent and wonderful you think I am not how beautiful I am, cuz really comments aren't always about stating the obvious, am I right or am I right?!! *kidding people, really c'mon!*
Saturday, November 12, 2005
...by the way Pam...Molly Ringwald...see the resemblance?!?!
AMY I LOVE YOU and I had missed you soo much!
I hate that so many of my closest friends don't live near me, it can make life lonely at times. well i'm gonna go read...
Thursday, November 10, 2005
PS- I saw Dora the Explorer live...heck yes I did!
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
but for now I must jet and do my job of "community building" bah ha
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
**wow so there was nestalgia for ya oh wait...it's not done! I can't help it, music has a way of making all these memories and emotions rush to the surface of your cognitive self. Pam introduced me to Damien and Damien reminds me of Pam and all the time the room 4 gals shared together. AH there was this one night where Helga told us an Icelandic fairy tale, in Icelandic then in english...it was freaky! Oh man, we had fun that night. we had a lot of fun most nights.
Awe! now i'm talking to Evan online. Dang it I haven't talked to that kid since end of school. three cheers for Evan just cuz we all know he's a flippin radicule kid!
Anyways i shall return to write about my life here in BC soon, after all you know life at cape..but what you dotn know is life in BC! ...well some of you. HA
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Monday, October 17, 2005
it was a new day. filled with promise and life. it was short lived though. strangled by the loss of things held dear to me...money and cloths.* i had agreed to take my dearest ma ma shopping. we entered the store. a recent fever spiked and i shed my black nit sweater and lay it in the cart . we walked on. toothpaste was tossed amoungst my sweater that lay strewn on the top part of the shopping cart. a display of face towels toyed with our senses and we abandoned the cart to take a closer look. upon inspection we discovered them to be not what we were searching for. we moved on. but wait! it's gone! our cart has been taken! trying to hold back the panic i searched madly through out the ailes. nothing. just empty glossy ailes freshly waxed. at this point my thoughts were not on my sweater but on the dollar i had so willingly shoved in the cart...wait...my sweater! my sweater was in the cart! it was no longer time to be calm. i was outraged. we had to find that cart! my mother wanted to give up and go home, disapointed in a world where someone would take a cart that so clearly was being used by others. not wanting to leave beaten by the system i shoved her another dollar. my last looney. she retreated to the parking lot in hopes of getting another cart. i persued the mission. i had to find that cart. i searched and searched . scowered every aile. every abandoned cart. every cart occupied by small children. it was hopeless. our cart was gone. my dollar was gone. my sweater was gone!! I gathered myself and presented my plight to the "costomer service" station. nothing could be done. gone. head hanging low i searched once more. but soon the fever took over. i walked to the front of the store. exausted. emotionaly unstable. in walks my mother. no cart. no cart?! before i could begin she told me . the cart took the looney but wouldn't uleash itself from the chain. she was horrified. dissapointed. a gentleman even tried to free the cart but it was usless. so there we stood. no cart. no sweater . no money. we decided to count our losses. we left that store. heads held high. fever running high. we returned home. the sun set and the rains began. and that my friends is the account of how i lost two dollars and a beloved sweater all in one hour.
* This is for dramatization purposes, I hold more dear to me than money and clothing.
Friday, October 14, 2005
I'm wearing oversized sweatpants. royal servants shirt and cow pattern slippers.
I'm listening to Counting Crows greatest hit. A long december.
I'm a wee bit sick. a cold.congested. big head. wee bit of a fever. hence the great sleep in.
I'm not looking forward to working 3 till 10:30. sick.
I'm imagining myself draggin my sorry behind all over chapters avoiding customers that i'm suppose to be helping.
I'm recalling first term Cape. when I was sick way too much and my roomies took care of me. curfew. clementine everyday.
I'm trying to find humor in a day comprised of broken sleep and work.
I found it.
Monday, October 10, 2005
I could take this moment and share with you all things that I am thankful for...but alas, I'm not going to ...well maybe one thing...
ps- I LOVE CHEESE.....I mean I've started liking Touched by an Angel *ok REALLY liking it*
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
i'm like a deep and delicious cake
all at once i can be a bit overwhelming/much...but take small bites, and it's soooo good" ~ My dearest friend Maia. Man, how she makes me laugh!
So I FINALLY figured out how to put stupid links on this thing! *applause* Keep your eye's open there will be more soon!
CHEERS TO GOOD TIMES, PAST AND PRESENT!
I'm signin' off ...i'm sleepy, till next time!
Friday, September 30, 2005
NEW JOB(S): I went out looking for a job one fine thursday and applied to a bunch of places including Chapters *ok my american friends, its a large bookstore like Barns and Noble type thing!* and I really wanted to work there, alas the last place I stopped, only because the hiring now sign was huge, was Quizno's. I dropped of my resume and the manager pretty much hired me on the spot and I started that night! So I was like well, this will do for now but I really don't want to work in the food industry. the next week i got a phone call from chapters! I had a group interview...then a couple days later an interview with the general manager! THEN YOU GOT IT A JOB! So I phoned Q's and thanked them for the opportunity but that it just wasn't my thing, they totally understood and I am now a proud employee of Chapters! I've had my training and I started today...shelving...at 7 in the morning... hahaha if you know me at all you know I dont do mornings ...but there ya go I did today! I usually will work on the floor...meaning I help people find stuff! YAY.
POOPY INCIDENT *litterly*: I was babysitting my niece and nephews. Riley and Isaac were outside playing and Ella was napping *mmm nap...* I was just thinking how Ella had been sleeping for quite a while when I heard her just giggling and talking to herself * she has her own language...seriously you can't understand her! haha* So I went upstair opened her bedroom door and " WHAT THE?! WHAT ?! OH MAN!!!!" ...ok some explanation required. Aparantly Ella had been up for a while and was bored. She also had pooped her pants....use your imagination. THERE WAS POO EVERYWHERE. when i saw everywhere people...i mean EVERYWHERE. ELLA, Covered. Cribe, covered. wall...oh yes my friends she put it on the wall. It was all over her blankets, herself and even a few toys that where in her crib. I panicked, I began pacing the room like a lost person. I grabbed a whipe and began to clean her, but after a few moments of that I realized that it was just to big of a mess. So i plucked her ever so gingerly out of her grib and ran her to the bathroom. . . after two baths Ella was clean. After an hour of cleaning and gagging her room was clean. Seriously though folks, you may have heard about these freak artistic moments kids get but dang...nothing could prepare you for the real thing!
RANDOM PICTURE OF THE DAY:
...I think I shall go for now...tune in next time...
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Sunday, September 11, 2005
So, I just posted a post that I wrote like Aug. 31 but never posted...get it. And now I wish to write another. I shall do it in point form....* holla to Tiff for saying I should update*
Things that have made me smile in the last couple of weeks:
- Watching my bro get married
- getting my glasses flattened in a TFK mash pit
- watching a dude full out land on the ground in a TFK mash pit...really it was funny, he bounced right back up, it was like straight from a movie!
- talking to people I've dearly missed on messenger
- reminiscing about my times in Africa and England
- little kids running around during our outdoor church service
- finding out I'm going to be an aunty again (Kev and Erika's second....my 6th niece or nephew!)
- reuniting with people at CBC
- running into BRENT POTTER at CBC
- having a huge girl talk while camping
- knocking something off my always wanted to do list...it involved water and a lack of swim wear *don't think less of me you know you've always wanted to do it....and no worries it was definatly NOT in mixed company, c'mon now! haha*
- getting hyper at random times
- being stretched in my faith by talking to JW's and working through some stuff this brought up with a dear friend
- knowing that God is the only constant and firm foundation.
- goofing off with friends
- making my own bean burrito, with far too much refried beans
- lookin' like a pop star BAH HA...
...man there has been soo much I can't remeber half of it for real...smiling and laughing is awesome, not everything brings a smile to my face though but that's ok, life isnt' always good but God is.
I feel as though i'm in a calm before the storm, waiting for stuff to begin and take me off in a whirlwind of activities, appointments, classes, meetings, schedules! I honestly can't wait for it to get here though. Im ready. Bring on the classes *i'm only taking two this semester* bring on volleyball *i'm joined the church league hahaha*, sunday school, alpha, work, youth...i'm ready! I'm stoked! woo woo ....hahahaha alright alright i'm going i'm going...
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
At the present moment I am feeling random and a tad hyper. I'm going camping this weekend with some friends, and I am so stoked to be heading to my favorite lake! Maybe that's why i'm excited, or maybe it's just cuz I've been thinking a lot about my past year and reflecting on it, England for 6 months then Africa for a month and then another month spent between the states and England. It's not merely the places I've been though, but the people I've encountered. The strangers that became friends that became more like my family, the lost that I was able to share Christ with, and the encounters with the creator that could never be faked.