not hurt enough to be numb but getting close

hey guys, i really don't want to sound depressing or be a downer, for all should know that it is one of my least favorite things in the world. the thing is though. i'm just sad. Disneyland was awesome, soo fun and I loved it. a haitis from my real life. I got home monday night and on tuesday had a minor breakdown realizing that I am walking the edge of my chosen path and it sucks. then tonight before work i found out that a guy i went to school with died on sunday. it's just so hard. life is really not an easy thing at times. part of me wants to laugh, have fun and encourage but the other part is so broken, confused and in need of the courage and support.

sue gilmore wrote a card to me before outreach with this in it "cast your cares onto the lord and he will sustain you" psalm 55(?) prayer needs to become who i am once more.

OK so it's been a rough couple weeks, i'm not going to lie! BUT this weekend my sisinlaw had a baby boy first name Hayden..middle names...Austen and Heinz *it was her dad's name* Hayden makes me an aunt sixes time over now!

PLUS i'm going to DISNEYLAND in 3 SLEEPS...TWO DAYS!!!

The week...

It's been a really rough week....
On tuesday my bear *actually my cat* was hit by a car, he was only like a year old and AMAZING. I'm not going to lie, it sucked hard core.
On Wednesday I found out that my old Dance Teacher, a friend to my sister and mother, who had been battling cancer, passed away. Death is such a hard thing to grasp.

But it ended or is ending in jubilation...
My Sister(in law) is at this very moment in labour!!

Lord be with all who have lost and all who will gain.