I'm BACK!

Hey kidlits,

So I had an unfortunate hiatis from the land of the w.w.w. because last weekend my computer just packed it in, yep it said heck I've had enough of this abuse I'm taking a grand ol trip to piece of crap land, and let me tell you my friends it must have enjoyed it's stay there because it didn't come back. Ah well, to be honest I missed it, for a solid week I did, but now here I sit infront of my 17in plasma screen ...and all thoughts of yesterday seem to have vanished. It's good to be connected again. Sad really, I didn't have access to the internet for like a week and a half and yet I felt a loss. LAME. But like I said, I'm back. I missed you all. *sniff*sniff*
Oh OH, so with the newbe computer it came with one of those crazy movie maker programs and it's so fun adn easy! I made a short movie *that I deleted* and it took me like five minutes but it entertained me to no end! I can see why Justin and Josh got soo hooked...move over boys there's a new kid in town!
This weekend was great, My friend Janelle and I went over to Victoria for teh weekend to visit with my best friend Amy. It was sweet we spent a huge part of the time totally reminiscing about hight school days and in that youth. Man I was soo blessed with my youth days, they were amazing and I am soo thankful for all the amazing people in my life thus far. We had some seriously good times and just yeah it was awesome. I couldnt' help but smile while taking the bus to the ferry Sunday. My life would make a sweet moive, ok ok I may be the only one that would watch it but dang it would be sweet non the less.
Well, I should go, I plan to play around on here some more before heading to bed.
night night all my lovelys who read this.

I had a day off cuz I was sick...

...the only sucky thing was, I was sick. **this picture was taken the spring before capernwray I think, man, I should have played more croquet at school, I make it look good!**

the moment.

two shows i try not to miss. if i do no biggy. but i don't like to. ok three. that's all i have time to watch and allow myself to stop the insanity and watch.
1. survivor *it just started two weeks ago. yes i am one of those people, but i wasn't always*
2. boston legal. if alan shore was young and cute i'd date him...oh yeah and if he was a real person
3. grey's anatomy. it's on right now. intense. why am i on here you ask then. well i seriously can't sit and watch. when the show is on ok maybe. but as soon as there is a commercial i have to do soemthing. i have lost the ability to sit and relax. i'm always anxious, i have too much to do. yet i dont do them. i sit here instead. but i can't sit.

well it's on again and it's a climax. gotta go. ahh commercial. ok this episode is acontinuation of last weel and oh boy it's a gooder.

my friend janelle came home from a 5 month wyam dts school and we picked her up last night...man it made me miss being out in the world. i miss you all. i really do.

YES I LOVE THE IRISH!!!

Your Inner European is Irish!

Sprited and boisterous! You drink everyone under the table.

Who's" Your Inner European?

Last week around this time...

...I wrote a freakin' good blog entry. I was so proud of it and it was beautiful and full of great incite. . . but alas I lost it while posting! LAME CORE! anywho, I was too sad to re-do it then and then and now I am too lazy! But it was good stuff about how I went to the starfield concert and how I had come to the conclusion that I was't meant for the 9-5 life and sure this was in there " a relentless expectation to meet with God". well that about does it cuz I have a buttload of work to do.....*sigh* i come home from work to do homework. hazah!

AND THE WINNER IS..........*drum roll please*...

Well first off I'd like to thank the following people for being envolved in my Contest: Pammy, Schrek, Kayels(x2), Sarah, Lesles, J and Danny! I appriciate all the hard, back breaking work you put into this contest. The results are in, and well the winner is Non of you. Sorry. BUT you all get a special Cyber *smile* for your participation. The winner is James, yep thats right Hitchmoe helped me out with the lovely name that can now be seen on my blog! Props to James! Well shall we carry on with the crazy blogging adventure...I think so!



Ps. Chair dancing is the coolest!

...I need a title!

Ok so I've decided that I said I need a title, and I have creaters block SO here is where you lovely people come in! I'm going to set out a little contest here....who can create the "BEST" title for Megan's Blog.

RULES:
....there are non just wanted to sound official

DEADLINE:
....uhhh ummm soonish!?.....

PRIZE FOR TITLE PICKED:
....um...no, it's not "nothing" ...you get the boasting rights of being "published" on my blog...AND a cyber hug from me!




... AND... GO! HAVE FUN! REMEBER I'M COUNTING ON YOU!!

since my last post...

...I've turned 22~ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.............*phew* seriously though, it's CRAZY, now I feel that I'm solidified in the twentys ya know. ANYWHO since all y'all that read this are youngin's anyways you won't understand hahaha.......

...I've also come to the conclusion that I love Boston Legal. It's a great tv show, and the only show I've watched in a while cuz i've been sooo stinkin' busy. BUT that's a whole notha post i dont' want to get into but I will say this.......I've reached a point passed insanity with "time" that I've just given in and been like GOd make it good. And he has...oooooooh how I need HIm.

OH OH *i know this is random but hey its me right!?* I really like this song by Thrice...


"Stare At The Sun"
I sit here clutching useless lists
And keys for doors that don't exist
I crack my teeth on pearlsI tear into the history
Show me what it means to me in this world
Yeah in this world'Cause I am due for a miracle

I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind

I see the parts but not the whole
I study saints and scholars both
No perfect plan unfurls
Do I trust my heart or just my mind
Why is truth so hard to find in this world
Yeah in this world

'Cause I am due for a miracleI'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind (till I understand or go blind)

I know that there's a point I've missed
A shrine or stone I haven't kissed
A scar that never graced my wrist
A mirror that hasn't met my fist
But I can't help feeling like I'm

Due for a miracleI'm waiting for a sign (waiting for a sign
)I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes (and I won't close my eyes)
Due for a miracleI'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes

Is X in YOU!?

"monday finds me on my knees again "

SIMPLE CANADA!?!?! Bah ha

OK So I just finished writting a blog entry *see below haha* and I was just reading through it and I found a couple random mistankes like conter instead of counter but MEH it's another not so random but well known fact spelling and grammer are not my strong points....but then I got to SIMPLE CANADA........I meant, SIMPLE PLAN..........BAH HA...sorry i think that's flippin' hilarious.....

Random facts on MMH...

I'm addicted to naps...it's true and yes I filled my quota for today.

Two of my favorite actors are Jim Carrey *O' canada* and Adam Sandler *in grade nine I wanted to marry him*

I think I have a slight case of ADD...which progressivly gets worse with age....

My pet pieve is toast sweat...you know when put a piece of toast right on the conter after it's popped out of the toaster! ACK so sick hahaha...

I once had green hair....and wore a red shirt *what was i thinking!*

I've just taken my first loan out...*and so it begins*

I'm almost 22......FREAKY ... and I still think I'm 16...ok 6!

I sleep with the ducky my mom sent me when I was at Cape. Hall for easter...well it' probably spends more time on the floor...

I'm the queen of procrastination, ask the second term tower girls when my assignments would get done...

My all time dream is to be in a broadway musical

In music my guilty pleasures are Simple Canada *pop-punk canadian band* and FiFi Dobson *although to my credit I baught the CD on sale and haven't listened to it for a long time*

WELL Kids, that's all I have time for right now but I just want to you guys to know. . . I think you're swell.

"acting normal is abnormal today"

QUICK who wrote these lyrics?!


IF you said Jesse Maranger then you are right! I slapped in the capernwray unplugged today while driving to work at 6:30 in the morning... I have to admit I pretty much had Jesse's stuff on repeat...it hit a cord today.

I've also been listening to the minor prophet series off and on in dee car. I can just picture the scenario of early morning lectures and the charisma of Rob that overflowethed........

I've been reading LOTS and have finished the Bad Beginning *book the first of the series of unfortunate events*, three quarters into "the five people you meet in heaven"by mitch Albom and have begun "this present darkness" by frank peretti and "the watchman" by ian rankin. I'm trying to read as much as possible for plessure right now because I KNOW that within the week I will not have any free time to warrant on reading novels of my choice.

New years was actually GOOD! Not that the past ones haven't been but there is soo much hype to new years and it rarely meets that hype...like birthdays you know?! *although last years b-day was great, thanks gals ;) *...plus I knew that there were a bunch of capers just south of the border and I wasnt' with them, but it turned out very well, just hung out at ben's and played games and jumped up and down at 12.....but really...reallllllyyyy...would I have not done that on any given saturday night...hahaha

I swore at a blind boy...

SO the other day I was helping this woman and her blind child *about age 10* find a specific audio book, while they sat on the floor reading the backs of other audio books I searched the store and computer. We'd have to order it in for the little guy so I went back to them and began explaining how we'd go about ordering it it, and ended with I'll just write your confirmation number on a shit......*silence for a few seconds then explosive laughter from the mother, son and then myself* UM I meant SLIP SLIP of paper....and the boy was like "that sure was a SLIP " hahaha, oh man, I couldn't stop laughing ....

This was a postcard sent to postsecret.com **it's a blog where this guy puts up post cards that people have sent him with secrets, regrets etc. some are funny, some sad, some I skip over, but it's an interesting blog, I discovered it when I shelved the book of a collection of the postcards at work** when I read this one I laughed to myself because when I was in New York, I TOTALLY feel on the subway!

ANYWAYS, Can I just say I'm DEEPLY saddened that I won't be seeing MANY of you on NEW YEARS...*sigh* I'm truly LAME for not coming down and celebrating with you all. BUT have fun and I'm sure I'll read all about it!

I just finished reading Obsessed by Ted Dekker...it's was pretty good, I really enjoy his stuff. WOW hey I just gave you a grade2 analysis of a book.

For my English Composition Final...

...this was one of the questionL " write a subjective discriptive paragraph on someone or someplace you know well" ...this was mine...

The day has ended with the passing of the sun and the diligent rising of the moon, the place I know all to well awaits me in my room. It’s warmth all to absent until it is created, it’s true calling not fulfilled until I’m there. I peel back the layers in great expectation knowing that soon I will be encapsulated by the very materials I fold down. First the thin coloured afghan weaved in the streets of Tijuana, then the aging comforter that at one point matched the decor but now is out of place, and then the top sheet there to act as a mediator between myself and the comforter. These are pulled away from the thick rectangle that has grown so accustomed to me it knows the position in which I sleep and moulds itself accordingly. The pillow placed gingerly on top of the mattress awaits my head in as much anticipation as I await it’s soft mouldable presence. From the moment I lay down to the moment I rise I’m thankful for this bed that is as soft as your favourite scarf, and as warm as the mug carrying your coffee.

I can't do it captain!

This is a pic I took during the last Hinds Feet meeting, we went to these really cool rock formations and I sat in a tree and pondered the lessons I got from the book. If you've ever talked to me online I'm sure you've seen it. Moving right along!


I have to write two take home's today, and SERIOUSLY I can't bring myself to do it...WHY!? WHY I ASK!!!!!! bah ha...they'll get done I know they will....

OOHHH today I took the Golden Nugget *my honda accord* to be repaired, yeah it's been over a month since the lady hit my front end in the chapters parking lot, but seriously I LIVE by my car. it's sad really but I'm always in it...yeah yeah I know reeking havoc on our world....ANYWAYS the point isn't that I'm horrible on the environment but that because at the time of the "incident" my car was under my dad's insurance I get a RENTAL! YAY it's sweet, it's soo nice to drive a new car that doesn't stall on you on the freeway! It's a toyota Echo...not the coolest of the cool but man its' cool!

WOAH! So one of my managers from Chapters just called me and gave me a BUTTLOAD more hours this week. It's bitter sweet really cuz i'm feeling a tad overwhelmed already this week but hey maybe this will work for my benefit when the only keep 3 of the 20 seasonals they hired!

I miss my old blog layout....BAH HA.

Dang me and my refusal to commit!

So I was just contimplating on the fact that I hate remaining in one place for a long time or the fact that I just don't well in commitments and then this got me thinking that I should change my blog cuz I was "bored" of it, so I checked out my options and thought this stale grey and green do-dad should do the trick, so a few simple clicks and BAM I loose all my links...CRAP. *sigh* you definaly loose things in translation. what am I talking about ...I have no flippin idea...I understand if you stop reading now because I'm about to just go off on a bunch of things I've been thinking about...

Sometimes I wonder if people really know me, OR do they just see a nice, loud girl who laughs too much. . . and that's the depth of megan. cuz it's not, and I know you probably know this, but it's hard at times. YES I do get mad, yes I do get hurt and mess up. . . yeah there have been people in my life who I haven't liked. Sometimes I think that I'm too much of a people pleaser and people take advantage of that. I don't like to be the "bad guy" or let anyone down so in turn can't say "no". I haven't always had it easy or never struggle with things.

i hate it when people judge others, even though I myself do it. i hate it when people pretend and are fake, i hate it when people aren't understanding or think the world revolves around them. I hate it when people don't consider other peoples feelings and say things for shock value or to be "different" i hate labels people put on others . i hate the word poser. i hate the fact that at times I can't express myself and am lost for words. I hate that people say with there lips that they love Christ yet with there heart push him aside... in that way I hate myself. it makes me sick when I see people slamming others and having no disregard for what they are doing to that person...yet I love survivor.

yes, I am a very sensitive person. too many things and yet not all. my brothers used to tell me not to take everything to heart and take things so personally, this is easier said then done.

We are all so complex that sometimes I think it is easier to reduce people/ourselves to single characteristics so that we are able to comprehend the individuals we meet, yet we loose so much, just like I lost my links. . .

Philosophy of love...

Have you ever been in love with the idea(ls) of love?

Think about it really...you're attracted to someone, enjoy there company, all that jazz yet you are not satisfied with merely the friendship...now is that you being infatuated with the idea of being in love or are you in love?

..interesting, no!?

...this can be related obviously to romance relationships but also to the relationship we have with God in terms of worship. another thought.

The Fat Burger Experience!

Yeah that's right folks, Fat Burger has come to Langley B.C.

Pride and Prejudice = 1 Question...

SO, Where the flip is my Mr.Darcy!?!